I am always very proud of not once having lost my kids in shopping malls or anywhere. My eyes were constantly on the look out for their whereabouts. As they grew older, I began to feel a bit more lax on keeping them within my sight. Hubby always feels that I am over protective. But, 一失足成千古恨。悲剧往往发生在那一瞬间。The last thing is to blame ourselves for what has happened and regret it for the rest of our lives.
Andrew has gone to LA and so I thought of bringing the kids to the beach for some fun. The beach was very crowded since it was a weekend. I don't like to bring my kids to crowded places. Unfortunately, there's where the action is. The horse-riding, the bubbles, the ATV... all kinds of activities will only be available on a Sunday afternoon.
Elyse wanted to ride on a horse, so my mom took Erwyn to play the sand at an empty spot. We joined them shortly after that. Awhile later, I left the kids with my mom and went to fetch water for Erwyn as he requested.
But when I came back, Erwyn was no where to be found. Elyse wasn't paying attention to Erwyn as she was busy playing. My mom was trying to fly the kite for Elyse. When I questioned mom, she told me Erwyn followed me to fetch the water. I denied as I went there by myself.
We searched everywhere for my precious boy. I was crying in my heart for God to protect my darling. The beach was big and there were so many people. Minutes passed, yet no sign of Erwyn. My heart sank. Perhaps it wasn't that long, but each second was like a thousand years for me.
My thoughts went wild. How am I supposed to tell hubby I lost Erwyn? Did someone take my boy away? Or did he drown?
And when I finally spot my little prince crying for mommy amongst the crowd I ran and hug him as though any second more he would disappear again. This was the worst nightmare I ever have.
Nope, until today I have yet step foot on that beach again. Other beaches, yes; but not that particular one. I couldn't imagine how I would survive without my baby again.
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